so many recipes...so little time

I also have several great recipes to share for all the wonderful blueberries and peaches that are so plentiful right now...that will be next on my list:)

I heard this quote last week by Jaroslav Pelikan: "If Christ is risen, nothing else matters. And if Christ is not risen – nothing else matters." AMEN and good-night!

Back to the blog

I'm not sure why I have not been blogging. Maybe because we have a major project going on at our house (mostly an exterior renovation that is creeping inside:) and my youngest child graduated from high school at the end of May. He also played golf on his school team and their season was in full swing. My daughter was home for a couple of weeks during May during which we spent a weekend with my sister-in-law and our nieces getting to be a part of wedding planning for one of them. It was such fun! Anyway, I've been busy. My husband and I were also having a forty day fast from tv. You would think I would have had lots of time to write. Interestingly I thought I would too, to read and write but it was not so. I realized that just fasting from something doesn't guarantee that your spiritual focus will improve. It is still a matter of discipline of the heart and mind. It was an interesting exercise in many ways.

It is now the beginning of August and we're still in the middle of the project, hoping to be finish by the end of September. Can I just say how much I hate chaos? But it seems that it is part of the process to achieve change, even for the better. That is a hard truth.

Since I started writing and re-writing this entry our daughter found out that she is moving from the campus of the University of Florida to Auburn University with Campus Crusade this fall. She helped lead a summer project team to Miami and all this was just finalized the week she was coming home at the end of June. As soon as she drove in from Miami she and I made plans to drive back to Gainesville to pack her things. Then my mom (who just turned 82 in June) fell and broke her wrist. We had to get her stabilized before our trip. My sweet sister-in-law let us drop off most of my daughter's things at their home just an hour from Auburn. That was so that we could see out our windows and not run the risk of being ticketed when we went to Auburn the next day to find a place for her to live! (Think Beverly Hillbillies packed into our vehicle.) We then came home and I took my mom in for surgery on her wrist the next day. Then a week later my husband, our older son, our daughter and I left for a medical mission trip in Peru. More about the trip later.

Bottom line: this summer has been CRAZY busy (there's that stupid word again!). Now it's almost time to move my daughter into her new apartment this weekend...and then her cousin gets married in a couple of weeks. Maybe once I get her settled, the wedding is over and I begin to get my own house back in order I can get back to the business of blogging!

true maturity

I have heard that one of the signs of real maturity is not getting your feelings hurt. I think that's true of both emotional and spiritual maturity. I don't generally get my feelings hurt often but when I do it's usually because of someone in my immediate family. It doesn't happen frequently now so maybe I am maturing. I hope for the day when I am secure enough in my own skin, with who I am and how God has made me, secure in His sovereignty that I don't get my feelings hurt. My kids have all hurt my feelings at times along with my husband, sometimes just superficially but sometimes they have been hurts that I have struggled with. I recently was struggling with a hurt that brings back old memories and consequently melancholy and regret. I have often told my kids in recent years that even if I could go back and do some things differently I wouldn't because then I would do other things wrong. I really don't want to go back but sometimes I am tempted to think along those lines. The funny thing about this is that they probably don't or didn't know that they had hurt me and certainly not as deeply as I feel or felt. Thankfully, time does remove the immediacy of the hurt if not the hurt itself. And time also gives me a different perspective. I still long for that day...when there are no hurt feelings...but that won't be completely possible until heaven.

Coincidence?

I just read this from Seize the Day with Deitrich Bonhoffer :
...To lose ourselves in the busyness of much doing is simply to deny our own need to be replenished. To be more discerning, to prioritize, and to realize the limits of what we can do will, in fact, help us to be more effective...Busyness does not guarantee productivity and effectiveness.
Coincidence? I think not. After what I last posted, I'm sure this was meant for me.

I was actually thinking about something I had read last week in this devotional book about anxiety and prayer. "From the moment we awake until we fall asleep, we must commend other people wholly and unreservedly to God and leave them in his hands, transforming our anxiety for them into prayers on their behalf." --Letters and Papers from Prison .
He writes about all the things we worry about on behalf of our children, family and friends. There are so many things that concern us; important things that can have an effect on their entire lives and little daily things. He says that our anxious thoughts only intensify our worry. "In seeking to transform anxiety into prayer, it is not simply a matter of talking to God instead of talking to ourselves, for that may simply result in talking anxiously to God. Rather we are challenged to recognize the limitations of our worrying and the possibilities of what trusting prayer can do."

I read this just today.
Numbers 23:19 NLT
God is not a man, so he does not lie.
He is not human, so he does not change his mind.
Has he ever spoken and failed to act?
Has he ever promised and not carried it through?l
The obvious answer to these questions is NO! God is faithful even when we aren't. He is doing some incredible things in our family these days, much of it through in and through our children. These are the lyrics to a song by a group called 1000 Generations that I have found my
self listening to a lot.

Fail Us Not

Failure doesn’t phase You, worry doesn’t win,
Loss doesn’t leave You afraid to start again,
Our sin doesn’t shock You,
Our shame doesn’t shame You at all

Mistakes do not move You, terror doesn’t tame,
Death doesn’t doom You to life in the grave,
Our suffering doesn’t scare You,
Our secrets won’t surprise You at all

There is nothing above You,
There is nothing beyond You,
There is nothing that You can’t do…
There is no one beside You,
There is no one that’s like You,
There is nothing that You can’t do…

Whatever will come, we’ll rise above,
You fail us not, You fail us not,
No matter the war, our hope is secure,
You fail us not, You fail us not,
You fail us not…

Hatred doesn’t hide You, evil doesn’t ail,
Despair can’t disguise You and tell You that You’ve failed,
Our doubt doesn’t daunt You,
Our darkness won’t defeat You at all

You’re bigger than the battle,
You are bigger than the battle
You are bigger than the battle has ever been

You can hear this and more at their official website http://1000generations.com

I mentioned a song by Josh Wilson in an earlier post. I am blessed to have my kids to share all kinds of music with me, some I would probably never know about. If you like guitar, Josh has and awesome recording of Amazing Grace that you can hear on YouTube and he has an official website with Sparrow Records.

Good Things...

I was thinking about how little time I've had to sit down at my computer and write over the last few weeks. It seems I've been BUSY. Don't you hate that word? Isn't it the most overused term in our vocabulary? I aggravate myself using it . It's my excuse for everything. One of my dear friends reminded us a couple of days ago at our Bible study of an Oswald Chambers quote about the "good things that keep us from the excellent". It's the idea of the urgent crowding out the important. If you've never read a little booklet called Tyranny of the Urgent, you've missed a gem. I need to read it occasionally to remind myself of how I allow the urgent to take over my life. It's my default mode. How do we slow ourselves down? I was talking with a few younger women about this tonight. One of them was saying that their Bible study leader had encouraged them to just "be still" this week; to take time every day to be quiet and wait before the Lord. It's hard for me to do that even when I am having my time in the Word. My mind is always racing ahead. I remember my husband reading this and sharing it with me years ago from the writings of Philip Yancey and Dr. Paul Brand. As I recall, Dr. Brand said that he and his wife had begun to pray together. When they first began they would both think of many things, unrelated to their prayers. They would write these things down and then continue praying. He said that after some time, those thoughts became less random and would many time prompt them to some action like making a phone call or writing a note. He also said that these were many times divine appointments made at just the needed time. I have to remind myself and go back to this practice. Praying about those random people and things that come to mind and writing them down so that I don't forget and I don't become so preoccupied with them that I don't pray effectively. I also tend to be overwhelmed with the whole of life because I forget that it's all the little parts that make it up! I have to constantly remind myself to break the big things up in smaller chunks that can be accomplished. It's that idea that you don't have to eat the whole elephant at once (I think I just read this on a blog this week; it was what her mom used to tell her). My husband has also recently told me that his new mantra is to walk slowly, think deeply and love passionately. I have great difficulty with the walking slowly...there's so much to do and so little time:) I think I would do well to also remind myself that God is the creator and keeper of time and my job is not to fill up every moment with stuff but to discern what He has for me to do and where He wants me to spend my time. When this happens there will not only be enough time to do those things but there will be time for rest, reading, worship and reflection and even fun! There will be margin. (A very good book by Dr. Richard Swenson.) I like that visual of having a page with margins on either side; I want my life to be like that, not filled edge-to-edge. I want to have time for the important things: my relationship with God, with people and with service that He has for me.

Another recipe

I told a friend I would email her this recipe but thought I might as well share it. This is another recipe I adapted from one of Giada's and one of Tyler Florence's. You can check out their versions at foodnetwork.com.

My Minestrone Soup

2 Tbs. olive oil
2 onions, chopped
4 large carrots , chopped
4 celery ribs, chopped
6 oz. ham, chopped finely (you can use prosciutto, if you prefer; bacon, pancetta or Italian sausage will work)
3-4 garlic cloves, minced
6 to 8 oz. baby spinach (Giada uses Swiss chard, I use spinach because it's always available)
2 c. very small pasta, like ditalini or tiny shells
1 28 oz. diced tomatoes
1 sprig fresh rosemary
2 15 oz. cans cannellini beans, drained and rinsed
2 quarts chicken stock/broth
rind of Parmesan cheese (if you don't have one just add an ounce or two of fresh grated Parmesan)
chopped Italian parsley
salt and fresh ground black pepper


Heat the olive oil. Saute the chopped veggies, garlic and ham until the onion is translucent, about 10 minutes over medium heat. Add the spinach and saute for a couple of minutes until it is wilted. Add tomatoes and rosemary sprig and simmer for another 10 minutes. While that is simmering blend 3/4 cup cannellini beans with 1/4 cup broth or stock until smooth. Add the pureed beans, remaining broth, and Parmesan rind. When broth is heated, add pasta, whole beans and a couple of tablespoons of the parsley. Simmer for another 10-15 minutes until the pasta is cooked and the beans are heated through. Season to taste with salt and pepper. Garnish with more parsley and shredded Parmesan. This recipe serves 8 -10 but can easily be halved if you don't want a big pot of soup or leftovers (which isn't us:)

the pit

I was reading Psalm 40 this morning and was reminded of one of Corrie ten Boom's favorite quotes“There is no pit too deep, that God’s love is not deeper still.” I am not presently in the pit but it hasn't been long ago that I was. My read-through-the-Bible-this-year plan ( I use John Piper's plan, you can find it at http://www.sfkcpc.org/daily/files/bethlehem_baptist_church_-_bible_reading_plan.pdf"> I actually find myself slipping back into the pit quite often and maybe you do too. The past several Psalms, back to 33, have spoken to my need to continually look to the Lord.
These are selected verses from these nine chapters:[New Living Translation]

For the word of the Lord holds true, and we can trust everything he does...But the Lord’s plans stand firm forever; his intentions can never be shaken... the Lord watches over those who fear him, those who rely on his unfailing love...He freed me from all my fears...Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles. For the angel of the Lord is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him. Taste and see that the Lord is good! Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him! Fear the Lord, you his godly people, for those who fear him will have all they need...
Turn away from evil and do good. Search for peace, and work to maintain it. The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right; his ears are open to their cries for help. The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.

Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you...Do not abandon me, O Lord. Do not stand at a distance, my God. Come quickly to help me, O Lord my savior..."Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered—how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best each of us is but a breath.”... I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire, He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed.They will put their trust in the Lord.

As I think about trying to be what He desires and my constant need for him I'm reminded of Josh Wilson's "Savior, Please". (Lots of things remind me of songs:) These are the lyrics.

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

Shouldn't that be our prayer ? Even thought I have the assurance that He has saved me from the penalty of sin: I am justified before God. He has to continue that work of making me "less like Adam and more like Christ". I know I can't keep myself out of that pit and I can't get myself out. Jesus is the only one who can do that...and I'm so grateful that he will never stop!

You can hear Josh Wilson sing this at youtube.

Valentine's Day

Since Valentine's Day, I have wanted to write down some of the thoughts I've had as I think back over the past several days. We had the opportunity to hear Fran Sciacca, perhaps one of the best teachers we've ever heard, at a conference this past weekend. [If you would like to know more about him or his ministry check out his website, handsofhur.org. You can download the sessions and the handout. There's a lot of great material there and most of it is free:] He was addressing a young audience, mostly college age and single, but several couples from our community group got to hear him. He speaks with the wisdom of experience and with humility. I wanted to write down everything he said! I'll try to write the nuggets I took away. It was not your typical how-to-make-your-marriage-work. First he talked about our perceptions and how they are shaped by our perspective. He talked about how our satisfaction in life and relationships depends on the gap between what I think I should get and what I actually get. The phrase he used was "Satisfaction (or happiness) is the child of met expectations." My husband and I learned very early in our marriage about expectations from a wise couple just a few years ahead of us. We all have expectations about what our spouse should do; how they behave and respond to us. The problem arises when our "list" of expectations is not the same as their "list". A husband or wife may think they are doing pretty good according to their own list but they may be failing according to their spouse's list. Solution: sit down together and compare lists; you may be surprised. Unrealistic expectations are such an enemy and so widely perpetuated in our culture. He spoke at length about how our culture so influences our perspective, even as believers. His answer was not a new prescription for seeing things but new eyes! Using the filter of scripture to view marriage and not the ones our culture uses; things like arrogance, apathy, anger and acclimation rather than awe. My favorite part of his teaching was his reminder that marriage is the single most effective tool (not the only one) that God uses to sanctify us, or to use his words "to make us less like Adam and more like Christ". If we ever can get that it is not all about "me" and "my happiness" (what!!) but instead about God and his holiness we will be on the right path. God desires intimacy with us and for us with our spouses. Fran said that intimacy does not just happen. Sex may but intimacy does not. It requires time and effort . I will end with this quote from him, "Learn to talk the way the heart (of your spouse) listens." Maybe more later after I mull over all he said. This is just a bit from about five hours of his teaching.

a recipe to share

I want to share some recipes in my blog so I thought this was a good one to start. I got the original recipe at a cookie exchange when my older children were preschool age (at least twenty years ago!) but I have modified it over the years. One of my dear friends says these are her favorites so I try to make them for her birthday. I just made them for her and a couple of other friends whose birthdays we were celebrating a couple of weeks ago and for a diaper shower we had at our Bible study last week. They are chewy, brownie-like and as they bake they crackle so that no two are alike...thus the name

Chocolate Snowflakes

2 c. sugar
3/4 c. cocoa ( I use regular unsweetened cocoa with a couple of tablespoons of dutch-process cocoa)
1/2 c. vegetable oil
1/4 c. butter, melted
2 c. all-purpose flour
1/2 tsp. salt
2 tsp. baking powder
3/4 c. powdered sugar, sifted

Combine the first four ingredients in a large mixing bowl; beat at medium speed of an electric mixer until blended. Add eggs and vanilla, mixing well. Combine flour, salt and baking powder. Add about 1/4 of dry ingredients at a time to chocolate mixture, mixing well after each addition. Cover and chill for at least 2 hours. Shape dough into 1-inch balls and roll in powdered sugar. wire racks. Place cookies 2 inches apart on greased cookie sheets. Bake at 350° for 10-12 minutes. Don't over bake! Cool on wire racks. This will make about 8 dozen very small cookies, great for teas and lady-parties.
[If you prefer to make the balls a bit larger, 1 1/2 inch balls, you will have about 6 dozen. The ones pictured are about this size.]

naming my blog

So in case you wonder about the blog title I have to confess that the idea came from C. S. Lewis. I have many authors but He is my favorite. I was re-reading his address entitled "The Weight of Glory" a while back and was reminded of what he says about our spiritual longings. He speaks of how we long for something that seems elusive; he writes about how we usually notice a particular feeling " just as the moment of vision dies away, as the music ends, or as the landscape loses the celestial light". He goes on to write about "the bitterness which mixes with the sweetness of that message is due to the fact that it so seldom seems to be a message intended for us, but rather something we have overheard". In another of his quotes from a source I have yet to locate, he says"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world." My husband has been reading Randy Acorn's Heaven and finished another couple of his novels over the past few months. We have talked quite a bit about some of the concepts he presents in those books. They remind me of many of C. S. Lewis's ideas concerning heaven. From time to time we catch a glimpse of what it may be like in the next world for a fleeting second and it is as though we have overheard something so wonderful we can't put it into words. The past several years of my life I think I've only begun to recognize those moments for what they are. I know as I get older I think more about eternity and things eternal. It's the idea that God has "set eternity in the hearts of men"(Ecclesiastes 3:11 NIV) But I am quickly brought back to the here and now with all the pressing, urgent matters that must be attended. I so desire to live in the here and now with a view toward those things that will remain forever: the triune God; His word, and the souls of people. I think that writing my thoughts helps me to put life into the right perspective. I hope that as I share some of those thoughts on my blog that you will be encouraged in the same way. These are the lyrics to a recent song release by a band called Downhere that put many of my feelings about this into words.


My Last Amen (by Marc Martel & Jason Germain)

From the corner of my eye
There's a tear I'm trying to cry
But the feeling can't be found
Like a note thrills in a song
When I play it again, it's gone
'Cause it was never in the sound

And it keeps me wanting
That mysterious thing
Like a night is waiting for a dawn

Every prayer I say (a little closer)
To my resting place (a little closer)
Where my final breath is the beginning
To never needing
And I will find my last Amen

I could swear I have two hearts
One to stay, one to depart
This sad, tragic kingdom
And it burns me down to the core
Because I know there's so much more
It's just a pale reflection
And it keeps me wanting
That mysterious thing
Like an outcast waiting to belong

And while the thrills are fading The joy is in the waiting
Somewhere in the grand design It's good be unsatisfied It keeps the faith and hope a little more alive

Marc Martel writes that the inspiration for this song came from an old hymn called "The Lost Chord". You can read more at http://mylastamen.wordpress.com/my-last-amen/
or listen at
http://www.downhere.com/

Venturing into Cyberspace

I've been thinking about blogging for most of the last year...so now I'm finally doing it. Why did I wait so long to begin? If you spoke to my family, those who know me best; they would say I have difficulty making decisions. ME? Of course, they're right. I was somewhat inspired and encouraged when I saw "Julie and Julia" several months ago. You know when she says " I could write a blog; I have thoughts." I definitely have thoughts but putting them on the web is a little intimidating for me.

I love being a wife and a mom and after thirty-one years of marriage and almost twenty-six years of being someone's mom I have quite a lot of thoughts about both! I love being with younger women and trying to encourage them during the early years of marriage and motherhood. I love spending time with older women who have already been where I am and trying to glean some wisdom from their experience. I enjoy friends who are in a similar phase of life; that would be mid-life. Those years where children are still at home or in college and the empty nest is fast approaching, parents are aging and need more attention and care. Those years when your hormones kick into overdrive and you learn why all the fuss about a little hot flash. (So you get a little hot, what's the big deal; right?)

I want to share some of the things I've learned along the way and some of the things I'm learning now. I want to share some of the great wisdom I've received from others; some personal friends and some who I only know through their writings. Hopefully, the things I share here will honor Christ. I want to convey how short I fall of His standard but also how generous His grace is in my life. Our goal in our home is to live what we say we believe.

I love to read so I'm constantly talking and thinking about what I'm reading and I also love to cook. Baking is my passion in the kitchen. Sometimes I do wish for a staff like those on the Food Network shows so that all I have to do is the fun part.

I like to be organized but I've relaxed my own standards in that area to the relief of my family and for my own mental health. Cleaning and organizing are sometimes therapeutic for me but our house is very lived-in with lots of "stuff". I'll write more later about the interests and hobbies of my family to give you a glimpse of all of their books, computers, video systems, guitars, amps, keyboards, etc. etc. etc.

I look forward to writing here and sharing with anyone who happens to read. More later and I'll explain how I chose the title for my blog.

Test Post

Testing to see a post!